::future::

3&4 oktober - seminar penyelidikan kajian tindakan. jam 3 petang, 3 oktober is my turn to present. (Insya Allah!)

21-23 oktober - kursus induksi sistem saraan Malaysia (KISSM) including an exam! TEBAL DAN BANYAK GILA BUKU PLU DI BACA. RISAU SAYAAAAAAAA..!!

30 oktober - final exam: EDU 3108 Asas Kepimpinan dan Profesional perguruan

31 oktober - final exam: EDU 3109 Guru dan Cabaran Semasa

end of okt - hantar laporan penuh kajian tindakan. heh sy sudah ada kajian sendiri! ;p 

5 Nov - final exam PSS 3114 Wacana dan Masyarakat dalam Pengajian Sosial

10 Nov - balik rumah. officially bergelar penganggur sbb sy bukan lg pelajar, yet tidak bekerja.

ohhemmmgeeee perasaaan bercampur baur! takuttt dan berdebar tgk tempat penempatan (oh dear God bg sy dlm kwsn Sabah pleaseeeeeee). sedih kena berpisah dgn Daerah Keningau dan kwn2 5 thn stgh, tp gembira sbb sy akan melangkah ke alam pekerjaan. sy ada gaji sendiri yeayyy!! bole bantu ibu bapa sikit2 (errr diragui!), bole beli apa yg diingini, bole laaa bblanja if mau mlancong ke mana2, bole prepare utk majlis kawen sy. 

oh, temuduga Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Pelajaran (SPP) awaits! semoga lulus temuduga dan dpt posting.

Ya Allah permudahkan segalanya.......pmudahkn sgl urusan dunia dan akhirat...amin :)

ps: sepatutnya 3&4 november sy dan my 3 other friends akan mendaki gunung Kinabalu. itulah salah satu impian sy iaitu menawan G.Kinabalu sblm berkahwin. sgt3 ingin...tp apakan daya, blm rezeki. sbb wkt tu tgh final exam. kami x berani ambk risiko. nnt g ambk paper pss3114, kaki terketar2 pla (sbb sakit baru naik then turun gunung). kaki terketar2 x apa lg, kalo tgn skali ikt menggeletar? hahaha. jd dgn hati yg sgt3 berat, tpksa batalkan plan ni. nsb baik bole refund. x apa la...huhuhu kalo dpt posting sekitar2 Sabah, myb bole la pegi naik wkt pskolahan. (sbb kwn sy ckap seisi pendakian 2013 sudah penuh spnjg wk cuti). unless bayar rm500++ boleh la g daki bila2. yg pakej sy dan kwn2 rm200+ sj (sbb Sabahan).

ok then, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

::aww... baby :) :) ::

finally. got some time to update my blog about life not to grumble a meaningless confused mind and soul. i've been meaning to blog about this a while ago but loads of things need to be done. recently my life is extra hectic so i dont hv much time on d internet.

all riteeeee. well, every normal married couple certainly wants a baby. baby always said as a symbolic of parent's love, a special and wonderful thing ever happened in life. my sister was married 10 months ago, (akad on 26 nov.2012-recall here), and on early of 2012, she went to d doctor after feeling unwell and dizzy (maybe haha), and d doctor confirmed that she's now carrying something/someone in her tummy, or in a short word, pregnant! alhamdulillah rezeki Allah mau bg. mula2 plan x mau ada anak awal but tb2 Allah bg rezeki, alhamdulillah kami semua teruja!

she was expecting to deliver a baby on september 16, 2012 tp pd usia kandungn 38 minggu dua hari, kakak selamat melahirkan baby boy di hospital likas, kota kinabalu. d exact date is 4 september 2012, jam 8.13 mlm melalui pembedahan. baby seberat 2.8kgs diberi nama rizq hafiey bin baharuddin. rizq hafiey membawa makna 'rezeki yg mulia'. Insya Allah anak adalah rezeki kepada keluarga. amin :) :)

kakak dlm perancangan hanya mau melahirkan di hospital ranau. tp pada 3 september, lepas her water broke dan dimasukkan ke wad, pihak hospital ckap dorg x berani ambk risiko kakak beranak di ranau sbb kondisi dia x sihat. she had a high blood pressure and sediakala mempunyai athma. pd pagi 4 september 2012 dia di bawa ke hospital likas dan malam tu terus dibedah. sebak sy dgr cerita abg ipar masa mula2 nampak baby. dia nangis sbb sgt terharu nampk baby.tp bila di tanya "mana ibunya?", jawapan nurse tu pula wat dia menangis sedih. my kakak di tahan di ICU sbb mengalami beberapa komplikasi. x plu la cerita apa, tp keadaan dia mmg teruk sehingga dipasangkn alat sambungan pernafasan. wkt dgr kakak cerita dgn mom, masa skali tu dia rsa plg sengsara smpai x bole bernafas, smpaikan dia minta tuhan cabutkan sj nyawa dia spy x lama menderita. sampai begitu skali! rizq, if one day u read this, pls know sengsara dan sakitnya ur mom melahirkan anak. jgn lawan mommy k, syg?

sy smpt nampk kakak, n mmg airmata jatuh x tertahan tgk wayar2 di badan and alat pernafasan disambung. mcm cerita dlm drama. bezanya ini realiti. syukurrr sgt keadaan my sis bertambah sihat slps itu. slps seminggu di hospital likas, finally rizq and kakak discharged.

k la, now mau masukkan gambar2 si comel rizq. oh, he will call me 'mommy momon'. momon@mumum is my nickname called by sister. originally from word 'munyit'. ahahahahahah dari dulu2 kami slalu ejek2, gurau2 kasar dgn kakak. smpai skg pn msh mcm tu. biasalah adik beradikkkk heee. tp ntah mcm mana nama 'mun' berevolusi kpd 'mon' dan 'momon' dan 'kemon' dan bgtulaaahhhh keadaannya. at least kalo rizq pggl mommy momon xkn padam memori zaman remaja nakal2 sy dan sis. hehehe

rizq hafiey kurang dari dua jam slps dilahirkan. BIL kata rizq lahir jam 8.13 mlm and gmbr ni d htr pd jam 10.02 mlm, 4 september 2012 :) masa abg ipar htr gambar ni, sy terus menangis sbb rs sgt terharu nampak baby. x pcaya pun ya juga. sy sebak sgt. subhanallah! indahnya ciptaan Allah. dr sekecil2 janin berubah menjadi manusia yang sempurna fizikal. sy nampk kakak since dia disahkan mengandung (blm ada perut), kpd perubahan 4,5,6 bulan..dan seterusnya sehinggalah smpai saat melahir. inilah yg keluar dr perut ibu stlh 9 bulan 2 minggu ibu kandungkan. hebatnya kejadian Allah ini. Allahu akhbar.

Rizq pd hari kedua.

Rizq pd hari.. err.. ketiga or keempat. x igt sbb ni abg ipar bg via bluetooth wkt g lawat kakak d hosp.

ni lps di lap2 badan dia. ni pn wkt msh d hospital. BIL sent via mms

hari ptama rizq d rumah, d ranau :)

muka slamber jerwww

muka mau b.o haha

comelnya!!

Rizq tdo dlm kelambu.

sleeping baby. so calm...

colorful rizq. kalo baby comel ja pakai colorful stuff. but for an adult, it will be a fashion crime. oh dunia sungguh x adil! ;p

as u can see there, baby dilengkapkn dgn gunting, limau, and yassin. xtau la ini cuma diamalkn oleh org Dusun or all baby do. 

baby and itou. heeeee

 

muka malas2 br bgn tdo.

 lemah laaa. nantok lggggg~

 1st time dimandikan pd 17 sept. 2012 oleh BIL. cute! :)

 "cool sj rizq kan, daddy,"

ngeeehh. skg mandi badan pla. 

 muka rizq wkt sdg bersandar d bahu sy. buang angin lps menyusu. 

 ambk gmbr sambil dukung rizq. seronokkkkkk okeyyyy pgg babyyyyy.

dan sy sgt3 suka dukung rizq. seronok sgt. mula2 takut2 jg pgg sbb x penah ada pnglmn. i dont hv an adik. x penah jaga budak kecik. but then, it comes naturally when u see a baby. bau baby sgt sedap! sy slalu ckp "u smell sooooo gooooddd. can i eat youuuuu," lps tu sy akan cium2 dia dr dahi, mata, kening, hidung, pipi, mulut, dagu, telinga, kepala. sedapppppppppnyaaaaaaaa!!

 tgh bz wat esaimen pn mash mau pgg rizq.

love u rizq. smoga jd anak yg soleh dan berbakti kpd diri sendiri, ibu bapa, keluarga, agama dan masyarakat. dulu2 sy takut bila org cakap sakitnya melahirkan. but then bila nampak baby dpn mata sendiri, ketakutan itu mulai luntur dan digantikn dgn perasaan sayang, bahagia dan seronok nampk baby. bukanlah x takut, tp keterujaan itu rasanya mengatasi rasa takut. i know it's a long way to go, but i admit i cant wait to hv a baby on my own. semoga diberi peluang merasa nikmatnya menjadi ibu. aminnnn :)

bye. mggu dpn ada seminar penyelidikan kajian tindakan. smoga kami bjaya melaluinya dgn baik! aminn huhu nervous.

::rapuh::

i am in a really vulnerable place.

Ya Allah, please hold me tight. hold my heart. hold my strength. hold my soul. don't let me do something that makes me regret in the end. i am in the right path now, don't let me turn around and back to my past. it hurts, and i don't want to get hurt again. 

i am having a second thought, and it scares me to death!

::still trying to communicate with the moon::

what's in my mind..what i feel now.. is kosong. empty

ceh itu bukan sempena lagu najwa latif (*sulky face* bcoz im not her fan)

haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (LONGGGG SIGHHHHH)

feels like something is missing..

 well, it's been so long.

and it's never easy.

it's like trying to spin the world the other way.

what can i say..

KUATKAN HATI..!!

LAGI BEBERAPA BULAN MAU JADI ISTERI ORANG MENGHABISKAN SISA WAKTU AS A STUDENT.

semoga kajian kami semua baik2 sj (invalid data ;p ;p)

hmm, ENJOY YOUR WORRIES. YOU MAY NEVER HAVE THEM AGAIN ;)

::PRANKED!!::

hola! it's september already. happy september everyone! ;)

sbrnya agk kacau bilau. byk assi blm siap. ACTION RESEARCH yg sprtinya memutuskn urat2 kepala. x siap2 lg :( wuwuwuw serius risau! tp x ada usaha utk siapkn. erghhh..!!

okay, my previous post kannnn psl merajukkkkk... dgn........ encik other half...sbb...igtkn..dia lupa my bday. tp sebenarnya.........

B sngaja wat supriseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dgn sy..!! oooemmmgeeeeeeeeeee hahahaha. teruk la!! dia pakat ngn my sis utk bg suprise cake (but the cake cannot be displayed here. private and confidential ;p)

jahat laaa b..!! suka kenakan org. heeeeeee. i did mention b4 to my family dat i want a suprise party for my bday. x sangka encik tsyg yg wat suprise dgn sy. dia wat2 lupa my bday, x pujuk sy seharian, x minta maaf dan wat seolah2 dia x wat salah apa2 (sgt kesalahan ok mlupakn bday tsyg lalalala). rupa2nya............dia mta tlg my sis tempah kek n kek tu dari diaaaaaa..!! eeee gerammmmm btl bila tgk ucapan atas kek tu. sorry skg x ble share pic dpn2. heeeeeee. and plg sweet, b kata "alaa 4 tahun smua cara sama B wish bday. tahun ni kena la lain sikit,". :) :) :)

thank you B. thank you for being the sweetest man to me. thank you for always trying to make me happy, make me feel loved, needed and apprieciated. thank you for this suprise. it's totally worked!! hahahaha. tq juga coz always helping me kemas umah kalo B ada d umah. bila sy kemas dapur, B akan kemas ruang tamu. smpaikn abg ipar ckp "sapeq ble jd suri rumah suda oo," and dady ckap "jgn wat keja tu. jgn ikut ckp si intan. ni smua keja pompuan,"... but B tetap tolong sy. tq love. tq for being helpful. team work la katakannn!heee.

tq also to my sister, mommy, daddy and the whole family :) :) .. kami smbut d umah nenek.

 B's advanced bday gift. make up set by MAC. tq hunny bunny :)

thank you for everything love..!! :) u are the best for me honey :)

next. my aunt wat open house on august 31st. skali smbut ngn bday nenek.(tp kanak2 tetap mguasai haha)

 long live, stay health nenek! insya Allah nenek akan ke mengerjakan haji pd tahun ini. semoga selamat pergi, selamat kembali dan dikurniakan haji yg mabrur. aminnn:)

and sempat bposing ngn my cuzzy, wiwie. she's only 10 but she's much bigger (8kgs heavier than me!) and slightly taller than me. how can this happen??!!! means sy msh bole dipcayai as murid tahun 4. erkhh (tp bila d skola bole d geruni murid sbb GARANG. trust me u dont wanna see my other side as teacher garang dan stress. haha)

 single me and blkg tu my cuty cuzzy effa yg sda ttdo.

next!

foodies are my favorite!

 milo DINOSAUR only rm3 at Mama Kopitiam, Ranau. bgs kedai ni. nampk xclusive, ada western food such as chicken chop dgn harga sgt murah, rm8 only. sedap okeh!

 wantan ho see seafood. 1st time order and pasni rasanya x kn order lg. haha. wantan ho ayam ok kot.

 cotton candy. singgah di Tamu jap after ikut antar akak g hospital

dream alike!

next. heee si kucing yg bgitu yakin melepak dlm kelas wkt cikgu mengajar. manja n mcm tau2 pla dia kena gambar. best kucing ni.hehe

 mkn keropok

 

 cikgu mengajar, kucing melepak.

 epic!

 kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

ok then, disini dulu. sdg menjaga my akak. sarat mengandung n byk pula komplikasi2 dia. sedih, penat, risau sy tgk. sy syg kakak. semoga dpmudahkn sgla urusan. melihat kesengsaraan, kesakitan yg ditanggung wat sy insafi besarnya pengorbanan ibu mengandung dan melahirkan anak. 

bye. doakn kakak sy cepat dan mudah beranak okey. huhu aminnn.