::kisah sekolahku part iii::

skg dlm bilik pemulihan. sdg menyiapkan data LINUS saringan 1 2013 utk thn 1-3. jumlahnye? 1+4+7 = 12 org jerrrr. seronokkan? eh lupa pula smbg story psl skola sy. mari masukkn dlm tajuk ini. kisah sekolahku part III (tunggu berabad baru dpt sambung.uhuk2)

ok setelah berada di sekolah ini lbh dua bulan (mendaftar diri kali pertama 14 mac 2013), apa yg boleh sy katakan ialah; alhamdulillah =). sekolah ni 100% Islam (eh tak tak. sy x kisah kalo ada yg beragama selain Islam) cuma d skola ini mmg smua Islam termasuk murid2, guru2 dan kakitangan sokongan. kebanyakan berbangsa Melanau. Lain2 pula Melayu, Kedayan, Cina, dan ..Dusun =p (sayalah tuuu)

skola ni dikategorikan sbg pedalaman 1 or nama singkatannya P1 (means kami dpt insentif pedalaman rm500). ok lerr tuuuu.hihi. jarak dr umah sy duk skg (kuaters guru d Sk.Selanyau) ke skolah lbh kurg 35-40 mins. plg lambat 45 mins la kotttt. ritu sy penah balik jam 1.29 pm, dan smpai d umah 2.01 pm (32 mins pjlnn) dgn kelajuan 90 to 100 km/j dan cuaca cerah dan jalan yg clear (x byk keta). kalo byk keta, cuaca hujan, lagi lambat la sampai. fuhhh. fuhhh. jalan ke skola juga x ok sgt. msh byk jalan blm berturap. yg berturap pun sudah rosak dgn agak teruk. sesuai laahhhh diberikan pedalaman okeh. hari2 kena jalan sekitar 6.35 am (rekod plg lmbt 6.50 am. hny sekali dan bw keta laju x henggattttt. sy x mau ke skola lewat lg..!!). keta sekejap sj akan bertukar warna kepada kecoklat2an. habuk lerrr melekat. kalo hujan pla, warna coklat itu bertambah banyak (lumpur melekat le tuuuu). haha. lemah bebeno. msuk ke kwsn skola juga bole jd 'urutan badan'. means jalan teruk jadi cam vibrate urutan badan. jalan tak okey ler tuuuu.

tp, apa yg sy suka dgn skola ni ialah; suasananya very Islamic. mcm duk skola agama pun ya juga. tahniah dgn cgu2 lama dkt sni yg terapkan budaya keislaman yg kuat kpd budak2. phimpunan skola setiap hari jumaat. isnin-khamis juga ada phimpunan tp ringkas la. nyanyi asma'ul husna dan bacaan doa sblm msuk kelas. hari jumaat ada nyanyian asma'ul husna, doa dhuha, sorg murid mst ketuai bacaan surah2 lazim.and lg best, skola ni skm (sekolah kurang murid). murid tahun 1 hingga 6 utk tahun 2013 tak termasuk prasekolah ialah 29 org. hihihi. kalo campur prasekolah yg umur 5 dan 6 tahun, jumlahnya 41 org wohohohoh bestttlahhhhhhh x berapa nak sakit kepala mengajar lalalala. and best of the best, murid tahun 1 sy cuma SEORANG. yes, SEORANG.ONE AND ONLY hihihi. seronok bebeno. sy ajar dia subjek bm dan math. sorang sj okehhhhhh lalalala. alhamdulillah wish granted utk mengajar d skola luar bandar/pedalaman. recall here. i once told my wish in this blog. Thank U Allah for e'thing You planned for me.

dari segi budaya kerja juga sgt baik. smua rakan2 cikgu komited, saling membantu, x penah nak ponteng sesuka hati, even CRK pun kena jual beli masa okehhh. so x adanya cikgu yg bole lps tgn begitu shj spt d skola2 yg penah sy lalui wkt praktikum lalalalla abaikan. overall cikgu2 sni baik and i think i can get along with 'em.

sy juga sbrnya dikira beruntung sbb walopn dikategorikan P1, tp jaraknya dgn Miri x la jauh sgt. dlm sejam lebih. wottt wottt. dlm seminggu ada la 2x turun Miri hewhewhewwww tp blom hafal jalan sgt. Miri ni insha Allah bole laa difahami jalannya. x sebesar KK yg fenin gileww bjalan. kwn2 lain P1 tp 3 jam utk ke Miri. sorg kwn pla P2 ambk msa 7 jam ke Miri. deadddddddddd =________= . and kmk da bole klaka swak sikit2. kmk suka bena bh ctok. bia jauh sikit tp nok ya sik kesah sbb bole sampe pulg balik miri juak bah dlm sehari.

ok niat sbnr menulis ni sbb tadi kls ngn murid tahun 1 yg 'ramai sgt' tu. dia dah habis topik smpai bulan mei (clap2 utk ckgu dia lalalala), so sy ada belikan dia buku aktiviti lain. sy mintalah dia wat. dia ni bole dikatakan murid pandai (dlm BM dan MT setakat yg sy ajar). pastu dia wat laa buku aktiviti tu.page to page......dari jam 11.20 am, smpai jam 11.53 am..tetiba dia kata:

"cikgu, sy wat sampai sini dulu lah. dah lemah sy,"

TERDIAM. SPT PERNAH KU DENGAR AYAT INI. TP DI MANA YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. then sy tny lg:

"Awak kata apa dia Alif?," (utk pastikan apa dia sebut haha)

"saya dah lemahhh,"

SERIUS SY GELAK DI SANA SBB KENAPA DIA GUNA WORD 'LEMAHHHHHHHHHHHH'. BUKANKAH ITU PERKATAAN FAVORITE SAYAAAAAAAAAAA. BUKTINYA IALAH DI SINI. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LIKE TEACHER LIKE STUDENT. SBLM NI BBRP KALI SUDAH DIA CKP 'SAYA DAH LEMAH' TP SY MCM X PERASAN SGT. CUMA TD SY SGT TERPERASAN. HAHAHAHAHAH TGH2 WAT DATA LINUS NI SY BERHENTI SBB MAU TULIS BENDA NI DLM BLOG HAHAHAHAH LUCU BAHHHHHHHH. MURID SY NAN SORANG CAKAP "LEMAHHHHHHH".

dia ni kn sensorang. jd kdg2 dia berkwn dgn budak2 tahun 2 dan prasekolah. dia ada kawan rapat sorg budak prasekolah umur 6 tahun (dlu wkt Alif 6 tahun kwn dia ni 5 tahun. tu yg msh rapat smpai skg). pstu prasekolah kn sllu balik awal, dlm jam 11.40 am (kot.teka2). pastu kwn Alif ni jenguk2 tepi tingkat mau g berkawan ngn Alif la kott. pastu sy kata dgn Alif:

"ha Alif kwn awak dah sampai,"

tau tak dia jwb apa??

"a'ah. tapi tak nak la sy main dgn dia cikgu. lemah sy,"

OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY OFFICIALLY DIA SUDAH MEWARISI SY SUKA SEBUT PERKATAAN 'LEMAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH' HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG KID CIKGU X PERNAH AJAR AWAK GUNA PERKATAAN TU. MMG AWAK MURID SEJATI CIKGU HAHAHAHA LAWAK BTOLLLLLLL.

hehe. comel anak murid sy walopn kdg2 x mau dgr cakap cikgu. daddy kata mesti ajar dia baik2. kalo seorang murid pun tak bole ajar dgn cemerlang, itu satu kegagalan seorang cikgu! huhuhu

 Aliff and his cikgu. "LEMAHHHH" hahahaa

 smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee though gigi x lawa hihi

 

Bahasa Malaysia dan Matematik Tahun 1

 ntah apa2 gaya

suka betul dia 

tgh godek2 gmbr dlm webcam, tjumpa gambar ni. kalo xsilap ni masa praktikum ketiga dulu, awal 2012. wahhhhhh knp sy nmpk bcahaya dan sedikit cantik (=ppp). knp skg sudah jd cgu sbnr mls bermekap sudahhh..!!! dulu rajin pakai mekap lapis2 base up, foundation make up, eyeliner bla2. dulu rajin pakai shawl lilit lilit berbelit sgala. skg lbh byk masa pakai tudung masuk. masok tros x ada lilit lelat segala. 1 minit sudah siap berpakaian lengkap redi to skolll. xda mekap lapis2 x ada eyeliner kdg2 lupa lg pakai lipstick uwaaaaaaa tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.huhu

kenangan cikgu praktikum ketiga 2013. i miss 'one year younger me' hoho

k la, daaaaaa. menghitung hari. khamis balik sabah. ahad fly ke kl. yeyeyeyeye.eh x berapa mau yeah sgt. blm siap data LINUS, esok hias pondok LINUS, petang ni g Miri dan petang esk jumpa land lady bncg umah yg bakal di sewa slps cuti nanti. lps cuti bulan jun Insha Allah dah duk menyewa di pkn Bekenu. save la 10 minit pjlnn sy. sblom ni kuaters Sk.Selanyau ke pkn Bekenu ambk masa 10 mins la. huuuu~ 

bye bye and bye againnnnnnn..!!

PS: I READ THIS ALL OVER AGAIN. SO TRUE AND I KEEP NODDING MY HEAD WHILE READING THAT.

DAMN U GHOST!

::an info, for anyone who need it::

saturday, alone at home and bored. WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

my housemate off to Miri with her two friends, leaving me alone here. (she did ask me to join them but sadly i can't because lots of works need to be done before monday. LIAR. I DID NOTHING WHOLE DAY BUT WATCH NON-STOP-COMEDY-SERIES-BACK-TO-BACK though i know I HAVE LOADDDS WORK to be complete before middle year school break. ok i promise to myself i will start doing all my works tomorrow. worklist need to be done: fail guru mata pelajaran, fail guru pemulihan, data murid, keceriaan linus bla bla bla. to make tonight even 'lovely', i can clearly hear those mice running and 'dancing' on d ceiling RIGHT NOW. seriously mice?? nowwwwww you have to show (or hear) yourself to me?? ok i actually saw real mouse in front of me several times in this house (YES WE LIVE IN THE HOUSE WHERE MOUSE EXIST) but pls mice, don't 'attack' me with your scary run noises and all. grghhhhhhhhhhhh anyway thank God my lappy connected to KTW (kampung tanpa wayar 1 Malaysia) so at least i still have a little entertainment.

ok x ada keja sgt. surfing dgn happy and sesaja. mencari bahan2 bacaan yg menarik dlm tenet (since x ada buku kena laa rajin membaca dr tenet kn uhuhuhu). pastu tjumpa bbrp page yg menarik hati. i'll paste it here but don't worry, im not stealing the words or idea.i'll put the original website address here too.enjoiceeeeeee reading!

website 1: You Don't Miss Him. You Miss The Idea Of Who You Wanted Him To be. original source: HERE.

It doesn’t take much to miss him: a song, a movie, a TV show. Maybe it’s a friend mentioning his name, or seeing or meeting someone who shares his name. The pain is almost unbearable. 

The “him” I speak of is the man you used to be in a relationship or the man who you hoped to be in a relationship with. But he’s no longer in your life in the way he used to be. You still think you genuinely feel love for him, despite the fact that he’s no longer a major part of your life for a reason: he is a jerk. He hurt you, probably repeatedly. And you know in your heart of hearts that you have no business ever having a relationship or probably even having any sort of friendship with him. But you still miss him a lot–even if he was and is bad for you.

You’re tightly holding onto the memories of this man despite the fact that you know that it’s time to move on. You miss him more than you can clearly express, you think of him all the time, and your heart aches at the thought of not having him near.

Of course, the problem with missing someone with whom you have an unhealthy relationship is that it leads to re-engagement with that person–which is the last thing you need. But you’ve probably texted him or called him, more than once. And you probably regretted it soon after you’ve done it. You can’t just help yourself, can you? Every bit of progress you’ve made in an attempt to gain a healthy distance from him goes straight back to zero. 

If given any chance, you would take him back in a second; you hope that one day, he can turn around and admit, “I screwed up, you are what I need in my life.”

Which brings me to my point: this guy you miss so much, he doesn’t really exist.

Yup. That man you miss so much, the man you wish could hold you again, the man whose physical presence you crave, isn’t really real.

You may be saying, “Wait a minute! I was in a very real relationship, what do you mean he didn’t exist?”

What you’re missing is the idea of him, not who he really was and is. 

You’re missing the version of a man that you constructed in your head. You created this version of him to fulfill a need. It could be a need to solve the problems of men in the past. It could be an unrealistic obsession with the “perfect guy.” It could be an obsession with unavailable men. Early on in your relationship or friendship, this guy somehow did things that you’ve always wanted a man you’re in a relationship to do and somehow said all the right things and that is what you end up being biased towards. He also seemingly managed to avoid doing things that men in your past did to hurt you emotionally or made you feel uncomfortable. And as soon as you witnessed this “good” behavior, you latched on to it. Box checked; this guy might be the one. You ignore all the bad stuff and hang on to the romantic fantasy of him feeding you nice lines. 

But all these positive traits are the components you piece together to create this image of this guy, who wasn’t actually a good guy or at least not the man for you. And it’s that constructed version of him that makes you ache, that makes you hurt. It’s the version you miss so much. It’s the version that makes you wonder how you are ever going to find a guy like him again. You can’t imagine that another guy like him, with all his unique qualities, could exist. 

The creation/idea you thought you were with, the guy you miss so much actually treated you horribly, made you cry, made you feel lonely. But you don’t think as much about those horrible moments when you are thinking of him, do you? 

The parts of him that you do miss don’t really involve the negative. Rather, it’s about the idyllic. It’s about little moments with him that were so amazing; you can just close your eyes and go back to them and feel incredibly happy and then incredibly sad.

Whenever you should be reminding yourself that this guy hurt you, disappointed you, you do just the opposite. The man you managed to create, who doesn’t really exist, pops up. He’s smiling, he’s making you feel special, he’s the one who makes you feel invincible. “The idea” of him comes roaring back and sets you further behind in your progress to properly move on. 

Nighttime is the worst, isn’t it? The anxiety runs high. Nothing can seemingly soothe the frustration, anger, sense of loss. Being alone is painful, but even being with your friends is equally tension-filled.

It’s enough to make you want to throw something against the wall, “Why can’t I just stop re-engaging, why can’t I just move on, why can’t I stop missing him? Why can’t I make this go away?” 

You’re not going to stop missing “him” until you first acknowledge that he was never really there to begin with.

website 2: Falling In Love With Someone While Married. original source: click HERE.

Falling with someone you can’t have

I usually get mails form time to time from people asking me about developing emotions for people they can’t be with, for example, one of the famous mails I get is from the 20 years old girl who likes the 45 years old man she sees often.

Whether you like someone else while you are married or whether you like someone who is much older than you then this kind of love falls under the same category of loving someone you can hardly have.

Falling in love with someone else while married

Before we can say whether this kind of love is healthy or not you must first know that the seed that starts love is usually physical attraction or some kind of interest in someone that results from the release of certain chemicals.
 You can become physically attracted to any person who matches your physical attraction criteria starting from someone who is older than you up to a movie star whom you see only on television. (see What attracts women and men).

That’s why the role of the conscious mind must always be preventing the subconscious mind from letting that attraction grow to become deep love if the relationship is not logically possible.

If this kind of control wasn’t allowed you will always fall in love with people you can’t have and you will cause lots of troubles to yourself and the people around you.

Watch out for the chemicals 

In my previous article, why do people cheat, I explained how some cheaters fall in love with people whenever they feel attracted to them not knowing that this attraction resulted from chemicals that will sooner or later fade away!!

This means that if you got bored of your wife then this does only mean that the chemicals that get released at the beginning of a relationship ran out. People who chase these chemicals always end up with disappointment because they never last except for the early stages of a relationship. (see How to restore love to marriage).

If you always fall in love with someone else while married then know that this kind of attraction you have towards him might not last and that you are risking your current relationship for something that might end sooner that you expect.

website 3: Why People Cheat in Relationship. Original source click HERE.

Why do people cheat in relationships?

When you first fall in love with someone certain chemicals are released in your body that gives you the sensation of pleasure, joy and excitement. Later on these chemicals disappear and the feelings of love are felt through intimacy and closeness instead of butterflies in the stomach.

When a man meets another woman other than his wife and finds her attractive these chemicals are released once again whether he is a cheater or not. At this point cheaters go for the new relation while honest people avoid giving in to the feelings of attraction they felt.

People who don't understand this concept might cheat

When this happens to a cheater he never realizes that the attraction he feels towards that person results from the hormones that are released in his body but instead he thinks that he loves that new person more than his spouse.

Cheaters might say something like:

• I experience new feelings when i see her that i don't experience with my wife anymore
• I am more motivated to see him than to see my husband
• I never seem to get bored of her

When we formulate these terms scientifically they become as follows:

• I forget how those chemicals felt like, with that new person i can feel them again
• More chemicals are pumped into my body when i see him than when i see my husband
• i don't think those chemicals will ever stop being released (the same thought that he first got when he married his wife)

How to prevent cheating?

Most of the cheaters who understand this concept stop cheating simply because they realize that they are just chasing chemicals and not real feelings. In my book The ultimate guide to maintaining a healthy relationship i explained how both partners should understand the fact that chemicals won't last forever and that intimacy must take over such feelings in order for the relationship to survive.

People who cheat chase a mirage then sooner or later will find that the chemicals they were after disappeared once again and this is where serial cheating comes from.

If you know a person who cheats on somebody then let him read this article. If you cheat then now you know that you are only going after chemicals and that you not in love with someone else.

Isn't there any way to restore these chemicals?

Yes you can restore these chemicals to your existing relationship by doing things such as increasing the eye contact and experiencing exciting events together. For more information on this topic read my article how can i love my husband again.

website 3: How To Restore Love in a Marriage. Original source: HERE.

In my article the psychology of falling in love I explained how we fall in love with people who meet a certain criteria that we have in our minds which is called the subconscious mind criteria.

The reason you are currently in a relationship is that you matched the subconscious criteria of your partner.

One of the main reasons love escapes from relationships is that people give their best shots early in the relationship so that they attract their partners then stop doing effort right after attracting them until they become different people who no longer match the criteria of their partners.

How to bring love back

The key to bringing love back to the relationship is to recall the reasons that made your partner fall in love with you at the beginning then reminding him of them once again. Did he fall in love with you because you were intelligent, persistent or beautiful?

Taking beauty as an example, if it was one of the biggest reasons your husband liked you then certainly caring about your looks should be one of the main priorities you should have in your relationship.

If you kept dressing messed up clothes , if you kept your hair messy or if you didn't maintain a tidy look then your partner might become repelled!

In short when we start to act in a way that results in letting us lose one of the items that is listed in the subconscious criteria of our partner then love will die.

In my book How to make someone fall in love with you i explained how understanding your partner's subconscious criteria and working on matching it most of the time can make your partner love you more and can make your relationship happier.

Repositioning yourself

Start acting once again as if you just met that person and do your best to impress him. Show all of your good qualities the way you used to do it earlier, keep pointing out your skills, the advantages that you have and your partner will start to become attracted to you once again.

Once of the main reasons people start to cheat is that they find someone else who matches their subconscious mind criteria while in the same time they find that their current relationship partners failed to do it. if you repositioned yourself to match the criteria then your partner will fall in love with you once again.

i think this page kinda helpful especially who those still hoping to get back with his/her loser ex-lover, or to anyone who fall in love with a wrong person, or to anyone who purposely/accidentally fall in love while married (na'uzubillah), and to those who wish the love in marriage is last forever. but yeah, feelings fade. just like the chemical. it's up to us how to keep the feeling stay.  

omg today is may 18th. less than a month i'll be someone wife. Insha Allah. ya Allah pmudahkanlahhhhhhh. 

*xtau berperasaan apa. haha* neves sket2. happy (errkkk wkkwkwkw), entah lahhh. kawen dlu bru tau kottttttt =p

bye.

::penakut::

hari ini baru penah dgr lagu dan lirik Penakut by Yuna. sbb ttiba tfikir perkataan ini utk tajuk entry. to be honest sy x minat Yuna. kdg2 siap kritik lg sbb x paham konsep lagu dia kdg cam bckp ntah apa2. MAAFKAN SY kerna sy buta muzik. mgkn ada yg memahami lagu2 ciptaan Yuna, iaitu mereka2 yg lbh arif dlm hal muzik. maafkn sy Yuna. sy sgt menghormati kejayaan awak walopn pd sy lagu2 awak x best uhuhuhu tp sy tetap suka bbrp lagu dia cam oh bulan enggan bla2  tau apa tajuk sbnr n lagu terukir di bintang.

dulu, ketika hati sy dibolak balikkan sama ada mahu meneruskan atau tidak si dia (yg bakal menjadi suami sy dlm tempoh bbrp belas hari lg.nervous!), sy selalu katakan dgn dia "sy x mahu meneruskan ini lagi", "i don't love u anymore. the feelings has gone". and so on. sy kata sy x mahu bersama dia lagi. "sy kata jgn paksa sy. ini x adil sbb one of us is not happy in this relationship. this is so wrong and you are not being fair to me.pls consider my heart," and im crying a lot. still, he's not giving me on me. dia cuba bersabar dgn karenah sy.

until one day, one day. he said "okay. im letting you go,". and there, i was speechless, numb and rasa x pcya HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND ANYMORE. OHMYGOD THIS IS REAL, HE IS LETTING ME GO. HE SET ME FREE. FINALLY HE GAVE ME WHAT I ALWAYS ASK HIM TO GIVE, HE BROKE UP WITH ME!!!

and i was burst in tears. i shud be happy, shouldn't i? but i dont. i feel part of me gone. i cant believe he really let me go. it hurts, and right there i realize that i never want him to let me go. saya yg x bole ditinggalkan. sy selalu kata sy x mahu bersama dia lg, tp sebenarnya hanya dia yg sy ingin bersama. sy selalu kata dia pentingkan diri sbb hny fikirkn ttg hati dan perasaan sendiri, pdhal itulah hati dan perasaan yg sy inginkn. sy kata sy ingin bersama org lain, pdhal hakikat sy xkn pernah sygkn org lain spt sy sygkn dia. sayalah sbnrny yg x bole hidup tanpa dia. sylah sebenarnya si penakut yg selalu berlagak berani minta ditinggalkn. dan bila sekali dia akur dgn 'permintaan' sy, sy mati di situ juga. 

sy ada seorang kawan (kawan jauh. x kenal baik sgt pn). dia kata dia dah bosan dgn psgn dia. dia kata dia sygkn org lain. bukan setahun, bukan dua tahun, bertahun2 lamanya dia kata camtu. kalau dia btl2 berani dan x sekadar ckp kosong, dia spttnya buktikan apa yg dia kata. but in the end dia kahwin juga dgn org yg sama. org yg dia kata dia dah bosan, dah hilang perasaan. tau tak apa maknanya, dia mcm sy. penakut. selalu ckp besar kata x syg, kata nak cari org lain, kata x bahagia. tp in the end, dgn psgn dia jg la dia bersama. tied a knot being a husband and wife lawfully. hahaha. 

ketawa. malu dgn diri sendiri. malu dgn pembohongan diri sendiri. malu sbb cakap besar dan angkuh bisa ditinggalkan. pdhal hakikatnya diri sendirilah yg sgt pengecut dan tidak mengakui tak bisa hidup bersama si dia yg selalu di katakan "sudah tak cinta".

berhenti dgn pembohongan diri sendiri. hari ini sy akui yg sy sygkan bakal suami sy. sy la yg x bole dan x mampu kalau tidak bersama dia. sy lah yg lemah tanpa dia. sy lah yg hilang punca kalau kehilangan dia. i want to be with him, insha Allah till jannah! =)

 

Ya Allah, pmudahkanlah segalanya............hanya Engkau tmpt kami berserah.

::kerjaya cikgu::

*skg tgh jaga paper math thn 4 paper II. melangut menunggu murid siap jawab*

semalam jaga kelas tahun 3. tp tahun 1-3 skg kn dh x ada exam (tq KSSR =_____=)

tgh duk tahun 3 tu, wat la pengisian sikit. murid x ramai, 7 org sahaja. memandangkan semua x bw kertas, tpksa la sy wat pengisian secara lisan. literasi dan numerasi. soalan literasi lisan: nyatakan cita-cita anda dan kenapa anda memilihnya. numerasi lisan: hafal sifir jerrrr.

ok typical situation lah kn. tp itu bukan cerita utama di sini.apa yg ingin sy highlight -kn ialah jwpn murid2 ttg cita2 mereka. DIULANG, MEREKA INI MURID TAHUN 3 YANG BERUSIA 9 TAHUN PADA TAHUN 2013. I REPEAT, 9 YEARS OLD. THEY ONLY BEEN IN THIS WORLD FOR 9 YEARS!

murid 1(girl): "cita2 sy ialah menjadi polis...kerana sy ingin tangkap org jahat"

murid 2 (girl): "cita2 sy ialah menjadi angkasawati..sbb mau tgk planet luar dari dunia"

murid 3 (boy): "cita2 sy ialah menjadi polis..sbb mau tangkap org jahat," then sy tny "contoh org jahat?" murid 3 jawab: "mcm peragut"

murid 4(boy): "cita2 sy ialah menjadi pemain bola sepak," then sy tny "knp plh jd pemain bola sepak?", murid 4 jawab "err.. tak tau. sbb sy mau jd pemain bola sepak" means he really loves sport so he wants to be a sportsmen.

murid 5 (boy): "cita2 sy ialah menjadi ahli bomba, sbb saya mau padam api,"

murid 6(boy) : "cita2 sy ialah mejadi polis. sbb sy mau tangkap org jahat,"

murid 7(boy) : "cita2 sy ialah menjadi polis. sbb sy mau tangkap org jahat,"

i think these kids affected from the Lahad Datu's invasions story. media such tv, newspaper and blog/on9 news cover loads of story from there and these young kids watch the news update from those sources and think it's very cool and fun to be in d battlefield. i don't blame u kids bcoz u watch too much cartoon too in this age. u watch Ultramen or Power Rangers (protagonist)  fought with d monsters (antagonist) and in d end the good side must win. 

hehe. x apa la, alhamdulillah kalo bcita2 menjadi polis. jadi polis tgs yg mulia, cuma yg x memuliaknnya ialah org yg myalahgunakan kuasa yg ada. for instance, bribe, melindungi org yg bslh, x mjlnkn tugas yg spttnya cth nampk org wat salah tp x ambik tindakan.well, dat is very wrong obviously.

 tp yg sy bengang dgn murid2 ini ialah bila sy tny:

cikgu: "tak ada yg mau jadi cikgu?".

murid: "TAKKKKKKKKKKK ADAAAAAAAAAAAAAA," (serentak dan scr berjamaah.kuat pla tu. smgt)

cikgu: "knp x mau jadi cikgu?,"

murid 4 si pemain bola: "sbb jadi cikgu boring,"

BAPAKLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOLE PULA DIA CAKAP DEPAN SEORANG CIKGU YG KERJAYA CIKGU NI BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

murid 2 si angkasawati: "sbb hari2 buat benda sama ja. mengajar, mengajar, mengajar"

BOLE CIKGU TERBANG SKG????

murid 7 si polis: "nanti pening kepala bila tak dpt jaga murid. hari2 jumpa murid nakal,"

amboiiiiiiiiiiiiii tau pun cikgu pening kepala dgn karenah murid nakal. hbs tu knp msh jadi murid nakal? sngja mau sakitkn kpla cikgu? ahahahhahah adoi adoi adoiii migrain dgr jwpn ikhlas murid2 ni. they only 9 for God's sake but how can they made a conclusion being a teacher is a boring job. wkwkwkwkkwkwk

and i said to those kids: "tak bosan jadi cikgu. cikgu seronok jd cikgu. dpt mengajar bg ilmu dgn murid2. tau tak, sejak cikgu umur macam kamu dulu cikgu mmg bercita2 mau jadi guru. Alhamdulillah cita2 cikgu tercapai,"

pastu sorg murid kata: "tp nanti jadi cikgu susah jaga murid2,"

saya: "apa susah. siapa x dgr ckp cikgu, cikgu denda ja lah,"

hahahahhahahaha sy gelak sensorang bila igt jwpn2 murid ni. yg peliknya mcm mana dorg bole wat ksimpulan jadi cikgu ni boring sdgkn umur dorg baru 9 tahun. dorg wat kajian bdsrkn pemerhatian kot thdp cikgu2 di skola ni???? hahahahah tp sy rs kami cikgu cekgi hepi ja pun ke skola hari2. adakah kanak2 ini mampu membaca dasar hati cikgu-cekgi yg kekdg lemah ke skola awal pgi? (errr not sure if all teachers is lemah to go to school on early morning or it just me). wkwkkwkwkwkwk

gelak sensorang juga kerajaan punyalah bersusah pyh utk menaikkan martabat guru2 zaman skg. x cukup dgn pelan PPIM 2005-2010, smbg lg PPPM 2013-2025, dgn PSI 2011-2020, bhahahahha smuanya mesti terselit "memertabatkan profesion perguruan" or "mejadikan guru sbg kerjaya pilihan" pdhal rupanya sudah ramai yg x minat jadi cikgu. wkwkwkwkwkwk

speaking of kerajaan, tahniah Barisan Nasional sbb msh diberi mandat utk mentadbir Malaysia utk kesekian kalinya. since 1955 - present kerajaan tlh membuktikan mereka mampu mentadbir negara dgn baik dan memacu Msia ke arah negara maju 2020. mgkn ada lompangnya sana sini sedikit,tp nama pun manusia, mmg x ada yg sempurna. bsyukurlah Msia dgn apa yg ada. x pyh wat segala bagai perhimpunan bantahan dsb. kemaruk gila jd PM. hancur negara olehnya. grhhhh. and skg smua sebok kata kjaan mainkan sentimen perkauman. ha'ah korg mmg la ckp gtu sbb korg x paham apa akhbar2 cina anti-kjaan mainkan soal hak menuntut kesamarataan thdp bangsa Melayu. oiii oiii ibarat kau masuk rumah org, tuan rumah tu layan kau dgn baik. bg makan, pakai segala. kau rasa kau sudah sebahagian tuan rumah/tuan tanah tp INGAT, kau tetap tetamu selama-lamanya. bila kau menuntut hak yg sama spt hak tuan rumah, means kau mau merampas harta dan kepunyaan tuan rumah. pls, act like u a guest. even tuan rumah berhak utk mhalau kau dr rumah tu. tp pastinya kau x mahu kn sbb kau x ada tempat blindung yg lain lagi. so, be it. jadi tetamu dan bsyukur dgn apa yg tuan rumah berikan. tensi..!!mmg la x semua 'tetamu' tu mcm tu, tp mmg ada kan klgn tetamu2 yg cuba merampas hak tuan rumah. terutama tetamu yg rasa dirinya sudah berkuasa dan leader utk sesuatu organisasi. im not saying any, everyone knows who.

ramai yg kata kerajaan racist. sibuk melaungkan 1 Malaysia tp dlm masa sama cuba melaga-lagakan kaum yg bbbeza. seriously ppl, fahami maksud 1 Malaysia yg sebenar. tujuan 1M ialah utk perpaduan. perpaduan bukan diperoleh dgn memberi hak kesamarataan antara 'tuan rumah asal' dgn 'tetamu'. TIDAK! bukan dgn cara mhapuskan hak keistimewaan 'tuan rumah' dan rumah serta tanah dikongsi bersama oleh 'tuan rumah asal' bsama 'tetamu'. BUKAN! perpaduan diperoleh apabila semua bangsa saling bertolak ansur dan mengakui hak serta limit masing2. bangsa Melayu mengakui org Cina/India adalah sebahagian dr rakyat Malaysia(meskipun pada asalnya penduduk di Tanah Melayu hanya org Melayu), dan org Cina/India pula perlu mengakui bangsa Melayu adalah penduduk asal di Malaysia dan mereka perlu mendapat keistimewaan tersendiri. disinilah wujud tolak ansur yang seterusnya membawa perpaduan. Cuba kalau Org Melayu x mau kasi bangsa lain duduk Msia? cuba kalau org Cina/India mta hak sama rata dgn bangsa Melayu? ha benda2 camni yg membawa kpd pergaduhan antara kaum, x ada tolak ansur. rujuk semula sejarah bgmana kemerdekaan tercapai. kemerdekaan diperolehi apabila semua bangsa2 d Tanah Melayu saling bertolak ansur antara satu dgn yg lain. kontrak sosial yang dipersetujui bersama oleh para pemimpin. org Melayu mengakui org Cina dan India adalah sebahagian rakyt Tanah Melayu dan dalam masa yg sama org Cina/India akui org Melayu adalah penduduk asal tanah Melayu yg perlu diberi hak keistimewaan tersendiri. Quid pro quo! (sila google kalo x tau apa). ibarat 'tuan rumah' bertolak ansur memberi tempat tinggal, makan dan pakai kepada tetamu dan para tetamu mengakui hak2 keistimewaan yg wajib diberikan kepada tuan rumah. mereka mengakui bahawa tuan rumah ialah tuan asal tanah tersebut, mereka mesti memiliki keistimewaan tersendiri berbanding si tetamu. kenapa? sbb dia tuan rumah! dia tuan asal tanah. kalau si tuan rumah pergi ke tempat asal si tetamu, si tetamu juga layak melakukan perkara yg sama dgn si tuan tanah. can't u see it??

mslhny skg, segelintir tetamu sudah mula naik kepala. mahu hak sama rata, mahu keistimewaan tuan rumah ditarik dan disamaratakn dgn si tetamu. wajarkah? racistkah mempertahankan hak tuan rumah? seriously ppl, THINK! para pemilik tuan tanah asal sgt perlu bersatu jika x mahu menjadi pengemis dan hamba di tanah sendiri. 

wah sgt berapi2 bicara. heheh. x ada la, ini cuma pndgn peribadi yg suka utk sy tlskn di sni.sy x racist. sy akui bangsa2 lain adalah rakyat Msia cuma rujuklah semula sejarah bgmana bangsa2 lain ini diakui menjadi rkyt Msia. dan sy sgt bsyukur duduk di Sabah yg terdiri dari pelbagai kaum, tradisi dan kepercayaan namun boleh tinggal bersama, duduk semeja seolah tiada apa yg mbezakan. Allah beri kita perbezaan spy kita lbh beriman maha kuasa Allah yg Maha Mencipta kepelbagaian suku kaum manusia.

ok.ok. new topic. well, kemajuan teknologi mmg x dpt disangkal lagi. yg dulu semua rasa mustahil, skg semuanya sudah boleh berlaku. dulu utk ke luar negeri/negara amatlah payah tp skg, hari ini d sabah, petang nanti sudah boleh berada di swak. hari ini d Msia, esk sudah boleh berada di Australia. bestkan??? hihi 

hp pun semua semakin canggih. dulu zaman millenium awal 2000, hp besar tahap gaban 3310 bole call dan sms shj. semuanya berbayar dan mahal bebeno. skg, wahhhhhhhhh bole siap main tenet, video call, sms+call pcuma mggunakan tenet. dulu siapa guna celcom bkira sgt utk sms ke num.dg/mxs sbb mahal. satu sms rm0.30. skg, x kisah laa guna celcom ka, dg ka, mxs or else, sms la kpd sesiapa. pcuma! how?? gunakan apps spt viber, whatapps, line, or we chat. yg penting gunakan smart phone yg mbenarkan aplikasi langgangan internet lah ye =p

dulu sesat jalan xbole wat apa. skg sesat jln, gunakanlah gps d hp. amat bguna hehewhewhwh. dan paling x tahan, dulu muka kurg lawa (x yakin diri) x mau masukkan dlm laman sosial. skg????? amboiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii gila kauuuuuu bole edit gambr sesuka hati. yg hitam menjadi putih, yg berkedut menjadi tegang kulit, yg hidung penyek bole dimancungkn. u ask me howwww???? kecanggihan teknologi lahhhhhhhhhhhh..!!! latest, perfect 365. wkt gn apps camera 360, mmg la bole edit tp apps perfect 365 ni lebih canggih sbb kita boleh 'make-up' muka kita sampaiii jd chantek tanpa plu actual make up. i mean, ambk sj gambar diri yg plain,pale dan natural, gunakan apps 365 dan... taraaaaaaaa..!! jadi mcm artis dlm majalah pun ada. hahahahahhaha bak kata my housemate Nins, "gambar2 skg mmg x bole dipercayai lagi!". well, indeeddddd. kalo jumpa dpn2 dan dia mmg cantik, ok lah. tp setakat tgk dlm pics d laman sosial, usahlah letakkn kpcyaan yg tinggi sgt. keraguan ada d mana2.hahaha

tp best what main perfect 365 ni. haha. gila edit habis okehhhhhhh.take a look!

kiri (real)---------------------------------------------------------------kanan (edited using perfect 365 apps)

bhahahhahahhahhahha seyes smua fake gila. grhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh technology why u no came on my era??? sy sudah tua dimamah usia barulahhh benda alah internet di hjg jari keluar. dulu pyh2 nak on9 yahoo messenger (YM), skype ntah apa2. skli sms rm0.20-0.50 (ke luar negara lagi lahh mahallll!!!). skg ni, x kisah laa kau di Kuala Sibuti, kawan kau d New York, boleh video call ibarat kau berdua duduk sblh umah. sms bila2 masa, pcuma lagi!!! erggghh technology. u came too late. u shoud came 10 yrs ago when i was just sweet 16!

k la, bye for now.

ps: very busy week. petang ni ke bndr Miri ada urusan, esk ada taklimat LINUS d PPD 2.15-5 pm, sabtu ahad cikgu pengiring kem motivasi di skola Nins. aptb uwaaaaaaaaaaa br merancang g tgk movie d bndr miri.huuuuuuuuu~ redha.redha. btugas dgn ikhlas, utk dptkn hasil dan rezeki yg halal dan diredhai =p

byeeeeeeeeeee again.for real.

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...dialah yg aku cari.

...dialah yg aku mahu.

...dialah yg aku perlu.

dia ada kurang dan cela,

dan aku juga tidak sempurna.

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menerima kelebihan dan kekurangan yang ada.

bagi menyempurnakan 'kehidupan bersama'

yakinkah aku menamatkan usia bujang 26 tahun?

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yakinkah aku mahu dan bisa melahirkan zuriat utknya?

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Insha Allah. aku redha dan pasrah dgn kehidupan yg Allah SWT tentukan padaku.

terigt kata2 sorg ustaz waktu kursus kahwin januari dulu:

 "sudah kahwin nanti, tutup buku lama. buka buku baru. x apa la sblm nikah dulu pernah pasang2 lain (curang). sudah kahwin nanti bertaubatlah. Insha Allah, Allah ampunkan. jgn sudah kahwin, tp masih pakai buku lama"

Insha Allah..!! =) buku lama buang jauh2. buku baru tulis yg 'baik2 shj' Insha Allah.

 

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